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Month: June 2016

Was Your Day Lost?

 

As you sit down during the lowering of today’s sun,
and reflect on the acts you have done, was kindness one?
Did you try to help relieve someone else’s stress or strain?
With your actions were you sure to try and also be kind?
Did you in your own way try to help ease someone else’s pain?
If you did any of these things then today you truly shined!
When you sit down during the lowering of today’s sun,
you can be proud of yourself for the kind things you have done.
But if instead your interest and concern was all on yourself this day,
perhaps it is time to try a new and more fulfilling way.
If you weren’t able to offer a smile to help cheer another’s heart,
you will miss feeling like you accomplished your personal part.
If, you cannot quite yet conquer these particular trials,
please remember we give others hope with just a simple smile!
If as you sit down during the lowering of todays sun,
and take the time to count the special acts you have done.
You will realize love and kindness always starts with just one.

 

Cannabis and Brain Injury

Dear friends, due to life threatening seizures I was literally MIA for 21 years. I had multiple traumatic brain injuries in that same time frame. It was medical cannabis that finally controlled my life threatening epilepsy. It is medical cannabis that is helping me IMPROVE with dementia which is suspected CTE! I so wish I had known the medical benefits of this healing plant a few decades ago! I found out about the healing benefits of this plant 6 years ago. It has also saved my LIFE the last 6 years! I believe that everyone deserves HOPE! I was not given hope by anyone, any longer. I had run out of time according to western medicine. When I was able to figure out the benefits and access medical cannabis for myself, I have wanted to shout it from the roof tops! Medical cannabis has given me a quality of life, as a chronically ill patient, I could have never imagined. This plant is the miracle many people and their families are currently praying for! Together we can share this important message far and wide and also with those closest to us, which many times are the very hardest!

 

Understand My Anger

I had an instantaneous, unforeseen, insult to my head.
it’s result and effect on my life has me so incredibly mad!
All my many dreams of the future, my hopes and my goals,
all changed and I can’t help that it makes me incredibly sad.

You think and say that I look basically identical to before.
You act like if I tried hard enough I could still be just the same.
In your unrealistic expectation of trying to accept the new me,
your pressure and demands have made me aware this is no game.

You did the best you could but it has been very hard on both of us.
You don’t seem to understand why it has been such a torturous ordeal.
Yet you must remember it isn’t your life that has drastically changed,
believe me when I tell you this heart-wrenching agony is very real.

Don’t misunderstand that I am not grateful or immensely thankful,
yes, I am very aware that my disability could be considerably worse.
But just don’t ask me to pretend it is easy or ask me to try and
minimize.Because today, my life, my losses, my reality, feels very much like a curse.

Someday I am sure I will have the ability to let go of this
incredible pain. But it has to be handled my way, in my time frame, not the demand of yours. Please just try to be patient and loving as I am truly doing the best I can. Some injuries and their aftermath unfortunately don’t have instantaneous cures.

I think you would more easily understand and also been very greatly
angry, if this injury with such devastation had unfortunately, instead
happened to you. So please just try hard to have more patience and compassionate understanding, if anything tragic should ever happen to you, I would stand beside you too.

My exasperation and fury come from my internal tremendous frustration, at all the things that were once easy, and now are so difficult for me to do. Please just try showing some real understanding and sincere empathy, remember things are not nearly as easy for me to do as they are for you.

I used to never blow my top, I was considered as gentle as a lamb.
Now with these brain changes, I just can’t really tolerate very much
I hate to loose my temper, it makes it hard to recognize who I am.
Just try to understand me, and possibly give me a reassuring touch.

I don’t like to allow myself such feelings of wrath or outrageous anger,
over emotions I no longer seem to be able to keep under control.
My agitation certainly doesn’t mean I don’t need love or feel
appreciation, it just means that I am struggling very hard with this unwanted role!

Did You Notice?

Did you notice,
it feels like you walk alone?
Did you notice,
the lack of family and friend support shown?
Did you notice,
when others seemed to stop calling on the phone?
Did you notice,
this disappointment made you want to cry or groan?
Did you notice,
how many ways compassion could have been shown?
Did you notice,
when others use a different or demeaning tone?
Did you notice,
a lack of feeling like you are turning to stone?
Did you notice,
when you were ready to move forward even if alone?
Did you notice,
we learned to protect ourselves from hurt and fear of the unknown?

 

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