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A Patient's Point of View

Month: April 2016

Letting Go

 

If we hide,
we don’t have to decide.
If we pretend,
we don’t have to confide.
If we deny,
we don’t have to face,
the brutal realities,
that throw us off base.
If we stay angry,
we don’t have to deal,
with all of the frustration,
that we really feel.
If we blame others,
we can protect ourself.
If we don’t face reality,
it feels safe on this shelf.
If we stay lonely,
it disguises other pain.
If we stay mad,
it might keep us sane.
If we let go,
could we handle today?
If we forgive,
could we find our way?
If we were willing,
to come face to face,
Would the internal torment,
finally give up the chase?
Probably………

 

Glimpses

It was just a split second in time,
now I am forever different from before.
Feeling sad sometimes is certainly not a crime,
none of us can predict what life might have in store.

Sometimes there are tears and moments of unbearable sadness,
but in general we all cope, day by day, with our eyes on tomorrow.
For the most part we are thankful and our hearts are filled with gladness, but as with any loss, that lasts forever, we also all feel our share of sorrow.

No one ever told us what to expect, so denial was our strategy,
then the clock kept ticking and the improvements did not seem to come. Through the support of other brain injured, I realized there had been a tragedy, that I must face, acknowledge, grieve, get angry over and then start recovery from.

Denial was a wonderful place, but it was not real and it did not help me heal. Recovery has been a rough road, with many a glimpse at my pre-injury aptitudes. Sometimes I still wonder what if that pick-up truck had not been able to steal? Steal what? I still have my life and I am thankful. Recovery seems to be partly attitude.

But those glimpses of another, far easier time in life, are a step in our healing process. I know of no one that would raise their hand and volunteer for this kind of injury or pain, but that does not mean that we cannot turn our lives, with this injury, into a story of success. By sharing our information with others, in lessening another’s pain, we all experience gain.

Finding Our Way

 

It can take a long time to again find our way.
There were moments when we doubted our ability to make it through the day.
There were times we felt in everyone else’s way.
It can take a long time to again find our way.
There were times that we could only see through a haze of gray.
There were times joy and happiness were emotions that went astray.
It can take a long time to again find our way.
There were times we wondered if we could overcome this injury and again be okay?
There were times we learned to find hope in the smallest hint of a sun ray.
It can take a long time to again find our way.
There were moments when we doubted our ability to make it through the day.
There were times we felt in everyone else’s way.
We will get through each and every day even our most dreaded some way.
We will one day find others that understand and we will no longer feel in the way.
We will one day find inner peace and feel happy and no longer only see the grey.
We can overcome almost anything and everything life throws our way.
It can take a long time but we will all again find our way.

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